Monday, June 11, 2007

Children...

There's really nothing to compare to having your son tell you that the reason he doesn't respect you is because you are worthless, rude, lazy, selfish, greedy, and all you do is clean the house. Please, someone, tell me why I subjected myself to a 36 hour long natural childbirth labor for this child? I never thought I'd become my Mom but clearly I have except I thought I wouldn't cry when I had a teenager tell me nasty things. I was wrong.

As if cleaning the house and doing other mundane tasks are what I always dreamed of doing as an adult.

Gee, thanks.

7 comments:

Ampersand said...

oh dear. I am right there with you. I won't go into details, but I had a moment much like that this weekend. It hurts so deeply to give up so much and to not have it appreciated, much less be mistreated. too hard, just too hard.

Sentient Marrow said...

I'm sorry you're going through it, too. Feel free to email me privately if you need to vent.

Karina said...

Wow, my heart just broke for you a little bit. I don't have kids of my own, but I can't imagine how much that must have hurt you. So sorry!

You stopped by my Sunday Scribblings yesterday, so I wanted to come visit. I hope your week gets better!

SusansPlace said...

Many hugs,dear one. I know that hurt a lot and I also know you are a wonderful Mom. Take a bubble bath and make a list, starting with that long labor, of all the things you have done for your children and the ways you have contributed positively to their lives. You will be surprised. Also, I don't know you mother but I DO KNOW you are not your mother. You are a unique individual who loves life, her family and herself. Yes, you do!

This too shall pass!

Susan

Shailley Sinha said...

Don't feel bad. The other day when I told my 5 year old to do something she said, "mamma, I don't like you.' My response, "Then I guess I am doing my job right."

There will always be a time in your kid's life when they will hate you and dislike you but trust me, that is part of being a mother. And that is not to say that you shouldn't feel bad about it. It tears your heart to hear such words from your own but just let it out.

Remember tomorrow he will say he loves you.

colleen said...

My son once called me a "big fat old lady." I tried not to laugh. Later when he wasn't mad anymore and I asked him if he remembered what he called me, he said, "well, you don't let us curse."

What's his problem!?

Sentient Marrow said...

Thanks everyone for your kinds words.

I guess what hurts is that there is always some truth in another person's criticism. While homeschooling, being pregnant and nursing babies, my oldest who was quite used to getting all of the attention before siblings came along got the short end of the stick as he got older. He has always resented that we had more than two kids. We have five. And, for part of those years I had major iron deficiency without knowing it up until last year. This affected my energy level and probably did make me appear lazy because I was always tired and things didn't always get done around the house. With all of that said, though, I've never done anything to purposefully hurt him and have spent most of my life trying to do the best things that I knew to do for him... such as natural childbirth, breastfeeding, homeschooling until he wanted change, supporting decisions of his that I didn't agree with, etc. i was young when I had him, 21, and in some ways we have grown up together and I think that's also part of the problem.